Life Is Calling

Put on my jacket,
Walk down the stairs,
Silently.
Making my way,
Through the dark cause I cant on the lights,
No.

Camera in my hand, trying to take the memories,
Its 6am, what does it matter to me,
Ill be leaving, with no return.

Goodbye to my years,
Ive paid you with my tears, oh.
Don't be sad, i will be back,
I've grown enough to face these fears.
However, nothing lasts forever,
By the time that I return its not the same.

Couldn't sleep tonight. um, maybe cuz u added enough hours of sleep here and there Colin. ( see im even talking to myself already) i looked outside and as the sky was still dark blue, birds have already
begun to chirp relentlessly. i live in a small neighborhood, the pace is rather slow here. so i decided to take a walk.
the words above best described my morning stroll through my neighborhood. It was supposed to be lyrics for a goodbye song but i realised i only changed the lyrics to a song i liked after revising the melody a couple of times. bummer. back to the walk..
It was brief, but i took in as much as I can. I took enough photos i suppose of my taman before it ran out of batteries. i got really loud barks by
all kinds of dogs, i guess theyve never seen me coming out so early. said hello to an uncle living opposite of me, he used to do tai chi, he strolls now.
wow i just realise this is gonna be those boring random post that only the author enjoys. heh. ill talk about food later on, so hang in there k.
great now i forgot what to say. u got me thinking of the food part already!
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as i walked back to my house, i realise that i wont be able to experience this as much as i would want to in the future. think about how big and wide that
'in the future' is. i mean, WOW. I wont know where will I be, what will I do in any given time. when can i ever do this again? will i even think of it?
then came many more 'things'. I realise i need to spend more time with friends and family.
See the thing that came to me was that, although i will be back. It will just NEVER be the same, not even close. This will be the first leaving family and home.
A new phase of life. and what is past is for you to push on to the future. you dont see a butterfly moving back to sweet sweet cocoon on a rainy day do you?
i am excited to enter this new beginning, i just wish it was much easier as the last one was compared to all the thoughts and feelings I have now. just 'ploop!' and im in the world! my mom would not like the sound of that haha.
i guess what i want to say is that im afraid and sad but excited. I guess that is how everyone feels. No matter how much you are leaving behind, it is still
apart of you. Hardest thing is, you are taking it with you and you dont know whether the pieces would fit back in.
I know one things for sure though, God has planned everything out perfectly for me alone to enjoy His love. I really cant put enough words, or the right words
to describe this.

I still have a good week ahead of me before I leave and before I do, I just want to say I love you and im going to miss you so badly 'life'.

now the food part begins. (i typed this in advance so i wont forget!)
I am going to find somebody now and bring them for a kan lau mien breakfast with me! with the sweetly seasoned roasted char siew..i cant continue, i have to go for it now.

remember though,
Life is calling out to each and everyone of us, are you listening?


Currently listening to Switchfoot - This is home.


**Post update
Yes! I just got back from breakfast with my mom and I got my noodles. Better yet it was downed with a cup of hot milo nai. (Nai = milk, in this case, condensed milk). We went to the market to get breakfast for the nursery kids after breakfast. Now im back in my room and i am more awake! When will I ever sleep?! AHHH!